.Tuesday, March 10, 2009@5:43 PM.
haiz, got back maths test.
fail. and its an E maths test somemore.
i never used to fail E maths in sec3.
& i failed damn badly.
dunno whats come upon me lately, not having the mood to study.
and worst still, cant even concentrate and focus on my studies.
haiz. 3 months since school reopened already. time passes very fast.
and im still sort of in my own lala land, not being able to wake up from it?
WHYWHYWHY?
why m i like that? WHY?
HOW?HOW?HOW?
what should i do to stop all the nonsense going through my head?
haiz. i hate sec3, i hate the year 2009.
it has been a very rough year for me since the beginning.
hate being like that. seriously hate being like that.
i don't even feel happy being like that. hais.
school homeworks. teachers assigned it to us.
& i have not been completing it at all.
just cant concentrate at all.
A maths, teacher taught so much.
But, sadly, i dunt even understand a single thing he is teaching.
Trying so hard to focus and be attentive in class, but nothing seems to go into my head.
I DON'T KNOW WHY LEY!?
hais..
what a pathetic piece of shit i am.
it has been 3months already.
time passes so fast.
everything has changed.
im hating more and more PEOPLE.
not exactly more people, just one or two persons.
my attitude has gone for the worst since the start of the year.
each day getting worser and worser.
hais. why?
IM busy finding an answer to it.
Found an answer, though, i don't know if its a good answer to myself.
Continuing my life like this is damn meaningless and stupid.
Have to change the path i took??
BUT HOW?
F LAHS.
Damn hate a gay in my class. Its an eyesore.
What a rotten rambutan he is.Trying very hard to let go of you.All my energy has been burnt up already.Too exhausted. Still trapped in the midst of trying to let you go.Very difficult, Very very difficult.Sick of it already. I don't want to continue trying to let go of you.Its far too, time and energy consuming.Hais.I always thought a guy will forget a girl first?But sadly, its the other way round.The only thing i can say is, i really need you very badly.I cant tell you that anyway, cos i already no longer exists in youI know that 3 months has passed and everyone is moving on, except me.But what can i do? No energy left.At this point of time, i don't know what i want.Anyway i think u can give up ur 'C' liao.
U are so happy off with him already, what for waste ur time with 'C'?You might as well go ask him for stead rather than waiting for 'C'
