.Thursday, February 19, 2009@9:31 PM.
hello
spent my silent reading studying biology.
had bio test. quite easy.
maths..bored
ss..bored
chinese, bored
physics,bored
geo, most boring.
haiiz, so boring in school
dun even know why must i go to school.
study study study, no life..
after school had Emaths test. average.
then later on went out with amanda.
went to west mall. walked around for dunno how many times..
girls are picky for their bday presents.. hahas.
spent an hour theire with her.
after that went back home.
tired.
bye.
one month plus has past already.did some thinking..i wonder, i wonder.i wonder, maybe before u fell for me last year, u already fell for himi wonder, why u only love the person who care for u.i wonder, thats not love.i wonder, why didnt u tell me last yeari wonder, if i knew last year, i would be able to forget u by sch reopen.by then, i would be happy now. and we could maybe even be friends again.i wonder, why did i like u, when we both come from 2 different worlds.i wonder, why did i like a want-to-be ahlian.i wonder, if i was blind.i wonder, ahlians hate guaikias. then why did u fall for me?i wonder, why must u be such a flirt, why must u fall for someone so easily.i wonder, why did i love u so deeply when i have never actually loved a girl so deeply before and ended up like that.since i cant change you, then, i have to move on and find someone that suits me.if u aint like that, nothing will happen at all.alot of people has been asking me why i didnt want to be with you,i have only one answer to tell them, that u like someonelse already.no progress made in me.haiis. can die at this rate.i have never loved a girl so deeply before.when i loved a girl so deeply, it hurted so deeply.im so stupid to have did that.i put in so much effort for 1 month plus already, but no progress.not much energy left to continue going on like that.oh gosh, why cant i just lead my life happily.haiis. wondering why i m not fortunate enough to have just a simple relationship.-suffering in progress-Labels: missing u; one death wish
