.Friday, July 16, 2010@10:55 PM.
Im here because i really have to let out some issues which have been bugging me and i m damn stressed up.Firstly, things have not been going well for me at all. Always having problems with my Design & Technology and seriously, its making me damn tired. This problem, that problem. Haiz. Nobody explain to me , how will i know where go wrong. Only after getting screamed at then will know where went wrong. This kinda life seriously sucks. Now i have regrets taking up this subject last year. Maybe i should have took Literature. Haiz i don't know lah. Whole life in a mess. Ms Chen kept asking me, what do i want? I can't answer.Secondly, something's wrong with my attitude and myself these days. I get hot-tempered easily. A little bit of things that go wrong will piss me off. I can't control the way i behave. Behaving like a gangster only... Whats wrong. I am very moody.Thirdly, I am very apologetic towards Ms Ho. I have let her down again and again. Term 1 made her very disappointed already and yet again in Term 2, i disappoint her again. Haiz. She wouldn't mind spend time talking to me, encouraging and advising me. Whenever i have problems, she will be the first one to know and listen to me. Even my form teacher isn't as caring as Ms Ho. I, as her Head Prefect, has seriously made her upset. Whats wrong with me. Ms Ho hit the jackpot this morning. The reason why i do not dare to put on my tie bar is because, im far too ashamed to even put it on. I do not have to pride of putting it on. Late 3 times. Handphone confiscated. What else next? Ms Ho never gave up on me. She said, "A leader will always be a leader". After hearing that, i almost broke down. She has high expectations of me but im like that now. Haiz. Very upset and disappointed with myself. I let myself and Ms Ho down. Almost every teacher is angry with me now, but none of them will really take time to speak to me like Ms Ho. Haiz. Im sorry Ms Ho.Whilst in the conversation with Ms Ho, i almost broke down. Very upset. Thats all I can say..
