.Friday, July 3, 2009@5:17 PM.
Self- Reflection.Its been quite sometime i did a self-reflection of myself.
Thus im going to do it now.
I warn you, its going to be a long, lengthy and boring post.
Leave if you do not wish to be bored to death.
Yesterday, interview number 2.
I ruined myself completely there.
Still remembered last year i went onto stage with JQ?
And i still played a fool on stage when i was up there?
I got scolded by Mr Toh & Mdm Sarinah that time.
So, yesterday i was reminded of that incident.
I was being run over 4 times, very badly and painfully.
I couldn't hold myself back any longer, so i went half broken down.
Today, we got the results.
I expected that to happen.
Very disappointed.
I had to hold back myself till it was over.
My fellow prefects all comforted me.
Thanks all(:
Everyone knew i was sad and depressed.
I then went to the computer lab after that.
Cooled myself down there.
Thought it over, i am not disappointed with myself, because, i have done my best.
After that i went to look for Ms Ho.
We had a hearty 30 mins talk.
It was a long talk, but Ms Ho was very patient and caring towards me.
I am very grateful to her.
Details of the talk are between me and her- confidential.
I could only conclude that, initally, whatever mindset i had was wrong.
I thought of being a slacker and "rebel" or even quitting.
But Ms Ho really woke me up to my senses, and she gave me back the confidence i had.
This is not a sad thing for me, but a lesson learnt.
I have to learn to take things by my stride as life doesn't always goes the way you want it to.
Ms Ho proved to me that i ain't usless and i was touched to tears.
Its then first time i teared in school and infront of a teacher.
This shows how much VP meant to me but getting into the Exco is good enough too.
She had the confidence in me.
So, i must get over this darkest period and quickly look to the bright side.
I must pick myself up quickly.
I must not disappoint Ms Ho and the people around me.
I am feeling so much better now after talking to her.
Shes the only teacher that i can trust and talk to.
Ms Ho said that i MUST get into the top 14.
I didn't have the confidence, so she encouraged me so many times.
Now i have gained back my confidence.
All I have to say is,
Thank You For Having the Faith in me.
Thank You For Having the Trust in me.
Thank You For Supporting me.
Thank You Ms Ho(:
I will never ever disappoint you.
Without you, i will not be able to make it to today.
When i am in position, i will do a better job than the President of Prefectorial Board.
I Will prove myself to the teachers that doubt me, and prove them that they are very wrong.
I am a better person after this experience.
People who makes fun of me that i do not get the VP, i will ignore them.
Whether i get into Exco anot, i still have to thank Ms Ho.
A Last BIG BIG THANK YOU TO YOU, Ms Ho(:Labels: thank you ms ho ;D
