.Thursday, November 20, 2008@9:48 PM.
after thinking last night about what i intend to do today
what i did isn't wrong. i had to do that because of many reasons.
firstly, it is very unfair to u. i don't dare to ask you for stead.
i m not ready for one.
that enough is very unfair to u. its like, we are a couple.
but we both have to face it, we are not.
there are many reasons why i didn't dare to ask you for stead.
secondly, i know i have been very selfish.
but, the more i think about it, the more upset am i.
friends only contact each other when theres a need to.
i feel that we are contacting each other too much..
i am not avioding you or anything.
i am just making both of us face reality.
its alright if you hate me or treat me as non-existant.
i dun yearn for your forgiveness.
i m guilty for hurting you.
i have only to say that I'M SORRY
dunt worry, this will be the last time you get hurt.
it will never ever happen again.
i hope you will find someone better who will not hurt you.
thinking about it, i can only make u sad and hurt.
i am that useless.
i have only 2 choices to make when i typed this out.
either being happy or sad.
i chose the sad way because being happy will not last long unless we are together.
but i don't want to be with you and cause you to be sad.
sadness will go away as long as you don't look back.
you are always the one who makes me smile
but i am always the one who makes u sad and miserable.
for that, its good that things stop here.
if you want to change class, its no point, you are wasting your time
sleepless nights. have been thinking alot.
thinking on what i did to you.
worried about you.
i will never forget you cos its too hard to
hais..
